my favorite things are disney and hannibal, figure that one out.
don't say i didn't warn you.
don't say i didn't warn you.
this is my design
So apparently the Les Mis DVD doesn’t come out til Friday?
We’ve already have it on display at work for like a week.
After getting to the Christkindlmarket, everything was absolutely perfect and I was having the best night until he had to just show up out of the blue (when he knew I was going to be there and had no actual interest in being there himself) with some random girl that he awkwardly didn’t even introduce to me and ruin it ugh.
I mean. It was still a good night though. And now it’s time for me to have a Muppet Show marathon and eat my feelings.
Today was shitty, tonight was a bust, and I’m thinking I might go to Wreck-It Ralph because I still could but I had a Bloody Mary and I am le tired.
So. I dunno what I’m doing.
Today continues to be a disappointment.
Wow, I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I agreed to watch the extended editions of Lord of the Rings with Robert…
victorianoir replied to your post: Oh, shit, I guess I’m not going to Wreck-It Ralph…
Nuuuuu! Why?
The most concise answer to this question is “a boy.”
I had the craziest, most spontaneous night and I don’t want to forget a thing so here you go.
Disclaimer, I’m still slightly intoxicated so forgive me any typos or nonsensicalness. And this is going to probably be fucking long as fuck, so it’s mostly just for me, to preserve the night in my memory. Probably won’t be interesting to anyone else.
So Halloween, right? I wasn’t planning on doing anything. Then I was on the bus home and I texted Justin and he said he was going to come over with Tony, this guy from L.A. that he met in San Francisco who came to visit him. Justin’s been telling me about Tony (he tells me about all his boys), and showing me pictures and I thought he was pretty cute. Cuter than the guys Justin’s usually into, in my opinion.
In person… hot damn. This guy is adorable. And he is my new favorite person. We like all the same kinds of music (which Justin isn’t into) and we’re basically a lot alike. Oh, and Tony is a musician and he had a ukulele with him because he and Justin had just come from this open mic night thing. We were hanging out at my place on the roof, drinking a little, talking about music and everything. Tony likes Talking Heads so that’s an automatic in with me. And he’s super sweet. Like. Nice. So nice.
Anyway Tony really wanted to go out, so we went to Big Chicks, where we usually hang out. On the way, on the bus, we ran into Cat, a co-worker. And I realized I’d left my phone at home but I figured whatever, because I knew I was safe with Justin and Tony.
If I’ve ever mentioned a bar that I went to with Justin, it was probably Chicks. Anyway I wasn’t really feeling it because Andy (who usually gives us free drinks) wasn’t bartending that night so I was like meh. But I went along, and since Justin owed me a drink he bought one for me. Gin and tonic. But like. When we came in this guy immediately started hitting on Tony (because he’s cute as hell) and Tony was like okay, whatever. And then the guy came over and was trying to get with Tony and he introduced himself to me, figuring he should get in with Tony’s friend, you know? And he was like “hey, I’m Justin.” And I was like, feeling awkward, so I was like “hey, this guy’s Justin too.” And the guy was like “yeah, but fuck him.”
And that’s when Tony lost his shit. He was like “you know what, no, you’re an asshole, go away” and the guy was like, trying to say something and Tony kept interrupting him and going “no, you’re an asshole, no, nope, go away.” And the guy finally left. And then - AND THEN. Fucking Vinny and Aaron show up. For the uninitiated Vinny is Justin’s (now ex-)boyfriend. They just broke up. And Aaron is his friend, one of my co-workers whom I adore. Both of them are deaf, I don’t know sign language, but I’m learning. Aaron was in his Effie (Hunger Games) costume.
Anyway, awkward. I was like, “I’m going to go say hi.” Because it would be dumb if I didn’t, you know? They’re my friends, regardless of any shit that happens. And I guess Vinny texted Justin because he decided to come say hi too. So. I went over. Vinny was first up, and he kind of gave me this weird look… as if we weren’t okay. Granted I’m not really close friends with him like I am with Aaron, but his situation with Justin shouldn’t make any difference in his relationship with me. I put my arms out for a hug and he accepted it and I gave him a little back rub. Then Aaron did a fabulous little jig/twirl thing for me and gave me a hug. His costume was pretty excellent. I gestured that I forgot my phone and he took his out so we could type to each other about how FUCKING AWKWARD the situation was.
Justin and Vinny were now angrily signing at each other, so once I finished chatting with Aaron I skiddadled out of there and went to find Tony, who’d gone outside to have a cigarette. He was on his way back in and we sat by the door together and had a chat about being real with people, basically not fucking around or beating around the bush, so to speak. Eventually we saw Justin sitting back at the bar and went to join him. We walked by the guy who tried to hit on Tony before and he put up his hands in surrender and said “don’t hurt me!” Ha. We finished our drink and got out of there. We then went to Side Tracks, this club in Boystown that I’ve heard of but have never been to before.
BUT FIRST. We took the red line to get to Side Tracks and everyone on it was pretty tired and miserable looking. So Tony whips out his ukulele and starts walking around the car playing and making everyone’s day. It was amazing. Everyone on that car was smiling.
And I… did not care for Side Tracks at all, to be honest. It had such a bitchy atmosphere. Much worse than Berlin. Not a fan. The thing about Side Tracks is… It just feels like you’re not welcome? Like at Chicks, I feel like they go out of their way to make no one feel out of place. But at Side Tracks, I felt like my being a girl made me some kind of social pariah. I dunno. Ick. Definitely not going back there again. Plus at closing time they turned the lights up and immediately started basically shoving us out the door, quite rudely.
We stood outside for a while talking to Justin’s friend Buster, who was sweet. And then we started down the street towards Belmont. Tony had his arm around me until we came upon this girl who looked like she was about to start crying. Like, she looked like she was having a really bad night and Tony just broke away from me and went up to her, took her face in both his hands and looked at her and was like “don’t be sad, you’re beautiful” and saying all these nice things to her and she started smiling and stopped crying and she started laughing and was like “wow, you’re really cute.” Like HE JUST HAS THIS INFECTIOUS HAPPY CUTENESS THAT YOU CAN’T HELP BUT BE HAPPY WHEN HE’S AROUND, IT’S MAGICAL. Her name was Danielle.
Anyway she seemed to be better and then Tony noticed that her friend was dressed as Jesus and he freaked out, and started like jumping up and down he was so excited. And then he played a song for Danielle on the ukulele until her friends were in a taxi and were yelling for her to come along.
So we rolled on. We got to Belmont and turned and Tony smelled weed. He’d been looking for weed the whole night, basically, and he stopped and was like, trying to get friendly with these people who were parked in this car that had smoke coming out of it. This girl was named Brittany and she said it was her birthday and we all said happy birthday to her. Tony gave her a kiss and they gave him a few hits. Then Justin and Tony both kissed the guy in the car and we moved on. It was so weird.
We stopped at Walgreens so Tony could buy more cigarettes and I said hi to Ellen and Victor. I fixed Victor’s register for him. We moved on. We were basically walking all arm-in-arm at this point. I discussed my Robert-induced woes(?). Then we got to my place and we stood outside and Tony took the uke out again and started playing. We looked inside and saw that Giuseppe was working and Tony decided to play a song for Giuseppe.
We all went inside, Justin and I took some candy, and Tony was playing his song for Giuseppe and then he started looking at me and basically serenading me, it was pretty great. Then he gave me a kiss and a hug, Justin gave me a hug, and we parted ways. And of course Giuseppe had to fucking give me a hug too, as if he has any right. Ugh. I am so done with his bullshit.
Like, I love you as a doorman, but we aren’t friends and it definitely isn’t cool for you to tell me you fucking have a crush on me.
I mean, you have access to my apartment key.
Fuck.
Anyway, hanging out with Robert tomorrow, holy fucking shit. Also, I have class at 1pm, shit. Damn. Okay. Off to bed, I guess.
Jesus, I was actually being productive and working really hard but now I just feel nauseous and I can’t concentrate, COOL THANKS.
Ha, I think I’ve reopened a door that probably should’ve stayed shut. Forever.
I don’t only exist on weekends.
You like when I take initiative? Okay. This is me, taking initiative. Let’s go.
